what you want - but can't have.

here are some postcards I have created using the handwriting and answers to the questions that people have given me, they are simple but some of them have worked out quite well with my photography.

this is a f*cked up photo from the bunglow where I had the dream, the floating curtains and my mossie net at the window, the poor lighting of the one bulb.

'the dream about my brother'

Thailand 17th August

We were staying in this dingy bunglow right on the beach, and it was basic, but had something really weird about it. I woke up with hot tears rolling down my cheeks, wrapped in the net floating around me from the ceiling fan. I dreamt that my mother told me that I had a brother and she had to have him adopted before I was born, it was so real and vivid that it made me cry uncontrollably; I have always wanted siblings. In the dream I remember feeling so stupid for not realising earlier - it really affected me and I was scared to go back to sleep incase I fell back into the same dream. Of course I trust my parents but after that I could not help but question reality and what I knew always as truth, I felt unnerved, but it has made me want to document this dream in a short film.

wow my camera was a clever sod mixing some really interesting photos together

This is the start of my big rant, about the breakage of my digital camera when i was travelling this summer in Thailand and Malaysia, however the broken f*cked up photos that it did produce were somehow quite intreiguing. So thought I would post some of them for you to appreciate, even though my appreciation is laced with anger.

some examples of people's handwriting and their answers

some other symbolic illustrations taken from the handwritten books 'what you want- but can't have'

'useful' series just created one day when bored at work.